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riha → 21, senior @ college, writer, graphics-maker, lover of all things Johnny's Entertainment and Asian entertainment, most especially Nishikido Ryo. ♥
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I have been meaning to do this for ages, so here it is finally. :D This is just everything in my mems plus all that I can remember off the top of my head. I know I'm messing lots, but oh well. My wrists hurt from the coding. D:

( Fic recs! )

I've been staring at this entry page for a half hour wanting to say everything that I'm feeling, but not being able to because a) I'm a loser and b) I've never been good at talking about myself. So, let's just skip my emo and whining and loser-ness and talk about you. :D

I recently learned about the gives me hope website and spent yesterday reading through all of the pages (lol, see proof of my loser-ness). Everyone should read that website because it is beautiful. I wish I could be even a fraction as optimistic as those people. And then through GML I found out about operation beautiful which is also a wonderful site. And to add to the amazing, pipsqueaks wrote this fabulous entry.

Basically, I want to say that you, all fifty-seven of you, are amazing, gorgeous, beautiful people. I love you guys a lot. And I know I say that at the end of almost all of my posts, but it's not some lame internet ~ilu~ thing. I really do love you all. :) Some of you I don't talk to that much and some of you maybe I talk to too much (XD) but you're all very important to me.

So this is like a slice of operation beautiful right here. Directed towards all of you fabulous people on my f-list that I'm so glad to know.

You are talented, wonderful, interesting, special, lovely, gorgeous, splendid, fantastic, superb, amazing, creative, bright, intelligent, inspiring, beautiful people.

Don't you ever forget it!

I love you~ :)

♥

(Don't forget that, either.)

Lots of happenings over the weekend. :D It was quite a relaxing weekend, which is exactly what I needed after that hellish week. :D It rained all yesterday which was good because we desperately needed it, but made it really icky to go outside. D: Even though I didn't leave the room until like 5:30 to get dinner! XD For lunch I had leftover pizza from Saturday night, so I chilled in my pajamas all day. I love that. :D

( spoiler warning about cons and shows and dramas )

OHMYGOD I'M DONE NOW. STOPPING. Too much flail and my wrists hurt now. XD

HAPPY MONDAY DARLINGS. :D

IT'S SNOWING. WHY. ;________________________;

I know I like just did the whole drabbling thing awhile ago. But. I need brain power tonight to stay awake, so it's happening again. XD Maybe I'll actually finish them all this time. But it'll be a little different? I got this idea from a friend, where you give me a sentence, and then I'll continue from that sentence. So. Give me the most outrageous sentences possible (if you want something outrageous, that is) otherwise be nice. XD Or if no ideas for sentencing, then just normal pairing/prompt.

So prompts please? I have like three WIPs I should work on but I have no motivation for them, nor does anything on the smut/kink meme interest me. I want to write, but I have no inspiration. Enlisting the flist help yet again. XD *is hopeless*

I'll write as much as I can for each prompt/sentence thing, whatever. Erm, only doing NewS and KAT-TUN and Ohkura for now.

And I'll leave this post unlocked this time, too. So if you know anyone who wants fic, link them. I WANT TO WRITE. Is it obvious? XD Though no guarantees everything will be written, because I fail that way.

I WILL SHUT UP NOW. PROMPT ME PLEASE. *makes hopeful eyes* OH. And giving me options is appreciated~ :D

Hi, I love you. ♥ Sorry for being so retarded.

Been meaning to do this for a while. Friends cut. Already done.

This is not one of those omg-please-add-me-back-things. Sorry if I cut you, but it's because we just haven't talked for a long time, neither of us comment on each other's entries, or we just never really had anything in common to begin with. I hope I didn't offend anyone by cutting them, but I really don't like having a ton of friends on my flist when I never talk to them.

If I didn't cut you and you've been wanting to cut me, now is probably a good time, then. No hard feelings, yeah?

Everyone else, you're stuck with me. :P

this is my rage that i'm typing this now instead of at a decent time in the day.

some fucking idiot thought it'd be a good idea to make popcorn at FOUR IN THE MORNING and SET OFF THE FIRE ALARMS.

ahahahaha. ha.

DDDD<

seriously i'm going to kill a bitch.

now i am wide awake. and fucking cold. and coughing. a;a;slkdngaa i hate people.

goodnight.

♥

There's this contest for signed BoA items at this website, and I'm helping my roommate to win by posting the things they told us to here. :)

Links to some videos on youtube:
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Photos:
Posters.
Time Square [2008.12.04].
NYC Interview with Lan Nguyen [2008.12.04].
NYC Interview with Amy Chang [2008.12.04].

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JOIN THEM BOTH. OR DON'T.

simplyephemeral is my new fic comm and dazzlinghaze is my new graphics comm. :DD

I've been thinking about this for almost a month. And the deciding factor was that I was getting sick of going back to old fics on this journal and cringing from the atrocious formatting. I wanted to redo them all, but for some reason when I edited those entries on this journal it fucked everything up. :\ So, I moved ALL of my fics over to the fic comm. There are prettier tags there too, but not yet a index since I'm being lazy. >.> The graphics comm is pretty empty right now since I haven't made enough icons for awhile to post. I don't know how active that comm will be anyway, but since I'm putting my fics elsewhere, I figured I'd move my graphics too.

All the fics that're already here will stay because there are some lovely comments that I don't want to lose. I'm going to flock them though.

IMPORTANT: FOR EVERYONE THAT WATCHES MY JOURNAL FOR JUST FICS OR ICONS (OR BOTH) PLEASE JUST DELETE THIS JOURNAL AND WATCH THE RESPECTIVE COMMUNITY INSTEAD. There are over a hundred of you, so please just go over there. There's no point continuing to watch this journal because I never post public anyway.

Okay, that's all. :D

Edit 1: I want a new layout. :\ But I've gone through everything in minty_peach and refuted but haven't found one I really like. Anyone know other places to get cool layouts? :D?

Edit 2: ☆ the love meme ☆

130 icons featuring;
Nishikido Ryo, Akanishi Jin, Ueda Tatsuya.
NewS, KAT-TUN, Kanjani8.
Toda Erika, Horikita Maki, Aragaki Yui, Leah Dizon.

7 friends only banners featuring;
Kato Shigeaki, NewS, KAT-TUN.

4 wallpapers featuring;
Toda Erika, Yamashita Tomohisa, KAT-TUN.
( to the pretties! )

Title: The words I cannot say
Genre: Romance, fluff, angst
Rating: PG/PG-13
Pairing: Ryo/Shige
Summary: If only you knew, Shige, just how much you’ve changed me, changed the way I see you, how I want to see you, and how much I long to keep this hopeless affection alive.
Author’s Note: Loosely inspired by ONE OK ROCK’s Kagerou, translation here (member-locked). I haven’t written in first person POV in years, and definitely haven’t done it for the JE fandom yet, so excuse mistakes for that. The muses wanted it in first person, so first person is what I wrote. Muses must be kept happy of course. The fucked up tenses are meant to be that way. >.> I think. Anyway, hope you enjoy. I also haven’t written RyoShige for ages, might be a little rusty, lol. I hate titles. :\\ This one might be subject to change.
And thanks and love to Lella for being a sweetheart and looking at it and helping me. Ilu darling. ♥♥♥
( If only you knew, Shige. )

Today is Ryo-chan’s birthday and as he’s my favorite person ever, I decided to make a special pimp post for him. I don’t think one exists, so. :D
Here we go then!


( Ryo demands you click this cut )

Title: I choose you (Or the Chosen One, or the Pokemon Drabble which is Crys’ fault entirely)
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Yamapi/Koda Kumi (what. >.>)
Notes: I wrote this ages ago for Crys, taken after Koda Kumi praises Pi on his good body on Hey3 whenever that was, and well. >.> She reminded me I never posted it, so here it is. It’s porn, there’s nothing else to say about it. :D I'm not posting this to comms since it's really short and pointless, but feel free to direct people here if you wish. Though why would you, really? It's stupid. :D
( she choose him )
also, please to do this: the anonymous feedback meme.

iluuuuuu~ ♥ :)

I decided hiatus is over because I really can't keep away and I've finished everything I wanted to finish anyway. :Dv And to celebrate the return, here are my FIVE fucking retarded fics from the Rarepair meme. :D

Title: Your dirty little secret
Pairing: Ueda/Koyama
Rating: NC-17
Summary: He probably wouldn’t have given Koyama a second thought before, mostly because they hardly ever talked or saw each other, but in light of recent developments, Ueda can’t help but wonder why he never thought about it before.
Author’s Note: For the rarepair meme, originally posted here. Prompt: Ueda knows Kei has strong feelings for him, but Kei is too shy to confess. Ueda comes up with an interesting way to get Kei to confess. And hahaha, my titles keep getting lamer. >.>
( does it look like i want you to stop? )
Title: Studying you
Pairing: Shige/Nakamaru
Rating: NC-17
Summary: But it becomes very glaringly obvious that Maru’s starting to enjoy these meetings more and more not to learn and get help with work, but to see Shige.
Author’s Note: For the rarepair meme, originally posted here. Prompt: Something about studying together ending up studying each other. OP hasn’t responded, so if this is yours, hope you like it! :)
( just something that would make Shige loosen up )
Title: Spicing things up
Pairing: Shige/Jin
Rating: NC-17
Summary: It’s one of those lay-in-bed-and-give-the-camera-a-sultry-look shoot, and Shige’s never been particularly good at them.
Author’s Note: For the rarepair meme, originally posted here. Prompt: Shige's hot. Jin's hot. And combined they would be even hotter, so how about a photoshoot with the two of them and Jin being a little bit too slutty and freaking Shige out? And, again, more lame titles. Brain=dead.
( let's have fun today, okay? )
Title: Present for you
Pairing: Koyama/Ryo
Rating: NC-17
Summary: He wants to do something for Ryo. Something nice and fun, something that can take his stress away, even for a day, anything.
Author’s Note: For the rarepair meme, originally posted here. Prompt was anything as long as it was hot and sexy.
( how is that part of the present? )
Title: How you take my breath away
Pairing: Yamapi/Nakamaru
Rating: PG
Summary: Yamapi’s gone the next morning, no trace left behind that he’d been there at all. Maru’s not sure if he’s glad or disappointed.
Author’s Note: For the rarepair meme, originally posted here. No prompt, so I just started and this came to be. The only PG one, and surprisingly my favorite.
( maru thinks that might just be forever )

Innalilah wa'innalilahirajiun

There are freaking tears in my eyes. I am so depressed.

Rest in peace, sylviaunited.

I can't honestly say i knew her very well, but she was one of the first friends I had on livejournal. She was a fellow Muslim, and RyoShige fan, she wished lots for NewS to become eight again, and she contributed to fandom in so many ways. She was always so sweet and passionate and, god, I wish I'd tried more to talk to her and get to know her. She was just a bundle of cheerfulness, and whenever I did talk to her, she made me smile, and I'm so sad to see her go.

I don't know if any of you were closer friends with Sylvia, but if you are, I am so sorry.

Sylvia, wherever you are, know that you're missed and loved and will always be remembered. ♥


w_ryoku wrote a post about it here, if you want to read what happened, and they made her journal a memorial, too.

but it's not my fault when TORN finally releases a day after I go on hiatus. :\
and really i just need to get all my flail for it out. :) and then i will be back to hiding.

( ~torn~ )
.....and that is all. >.> i just had to flail about this somewhere. :)
how is everyone? i know. it's only been two and a half days. i fail at life. haha. i've also almost died three times in the last two days. but i prevail and will win. mwuahahaha. 8D also i may be coming back onto msn later this week before hiatus is over. realizing it's just. impossible to be away. or something.  i have been getting things done. which is good. :) so hiatusing is not a complete waste yet. :)

anyway. going to stop rambling. hope everyone is doing lovely. ♥ anything interesting happen while i was away?

ilu. :3

Title: Alcohol and time stops
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Yamapi/Ryo (in that order :D)
Summary: In which Ryo’s insecure and Yamapi takes action. :D
Author’s Note: Three things made this fic happen: 1) I missed RyoPi. 2) I wanted to write smut. 3) I wanted to write uke!Ryo. And that is all. Very lame plot, very much just porn. Enjoy? :D? someone give me a title. Thanks to beililee  for the title! ♥ Ignore errors, I’m lazy tonight, okay? I’ll get to fixing them later. ♥

( you really are jealous aren't you? )

there is no point to this except to spam you guys more about Ryo/Erika.  :Dv

 

( totally totally totally the new otp )
edit to add this:
THE ANONYMITY MEME PT DEUX

:D?